LOST

SOMEWHERE ALONG THE PATH IVE TROD
I VE LOST MY SENSE OS SELF, OF GOD
IVE LOST THE SENSE OF WHO I AM
IM EMPTY NOW.. A SHELL, A SHAM


I VAINLY SEARCH MY PAST TO SEE
THE HOPE FILLED CHILD THAT ONCE WAS ME
SOME GLIMPSE THAT LETS ME FEEL AGAIN
THE JOY AND INNOCENCE OF THEN


WHAT ARE THE ROOTS OF MY DESPAIR ?
WHAT TERROR OVERTOOK ME THERE ?
WHY HAVE I HID FROM HE WHO S ME?
WHAT DO I FEAR TO KNOW, TO SEE?


OH WHAT A VILE THING MUST I BE?
IN DARKNESS HID LEST SOMEONE SEE
DOOMED FROM PRISON WALLS TO STARE
AT LIFE IN WHICH I CANNOT SHARE


PLEASE TAKE MY HAND, HELP ME REVEAL
JUST WHO I AM AND WHAT I FEEL
LEAD ME BACK FROM THE ABYSS


LIFE CANNOT GO ON LIKE THIS.

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just some words i felt and i ll feel.

poem given in canada from someone that knew how i was and how i wanted to be someday.